Love Thyself

I was stuck, looking in the mirror like I can't believe what I've become.

I hated my surprise at this moment. All my life I had been like this.

But it had been easier to ignore it, to look the other way, to make excuses, to tell myself that someday I'd be like them with their courage and their big boots and cars and voices.

I looked at my reflection knowing that resolving to change would not end my sadness because now I finally realized that change would not come.

And at what cost? At the cost of the best day of my life, at some coffee shop or movie theater, staring shocked at my progression in love with not just her but myself.